10 / 86400

You have $86400

Someone took away $10

will you chase him back for that $10?

NO

Someone spent 10 seconds

and say something bad about you

Why do you let him ruin 86400 seconds of your day?

Read this somewhere
and then it happened to me
AGAIN

Sometimes I really hope that I do not care about people that don't really matter
but honestly, I'm just human, and I think you and you are mature enough to know what you did is not right
and I was just pretending that I do not know all the damn time

you have your hard times and so do I
do you really NEED someone to tell you not to show your attitude to someone else that did nothing wrong to you?

If there's nothing between us
why all of you have to act that way just in front of me?
people say I am sensitive or I should try to be the one who speak out first and ask what's wrong

Yes I tried and both said they have nothing against me
but acting that way again and again

I've tried so hard
and I never tried so hard in remaining friendships


I guess I know the answer and that will be my way of protecting myself




Its okay
I have enough friends leaving without telling me any reasons
because things change and people change
feeling is something we cannot control




Thanks for teaching, again and again,

Love how it used to be.

I love how you used to tell me what you know
I love how we used to laugh at little things that we thought its silly
I love how I used to be the priority
I love how we used to be so comfortable to stick around
I love how everything looked like we're meant to be
I love how you used to look at me
I love all the -ed


and there are so many more things that I thought I could let go
but how to let go something and someone that you always thought is so perfect and you still think it is?


People pushed me
to look for someone
for the sake of "a better life of me"
they pushed so hard that made me wanna push back, so badly.

nobody knows
nobody will


I mean how anyone could truly understand what I am feeling
in the past
or now?

I have been constantly telling myself its over
but the only one who knows the truth is myself
just myself.


I always wonder when will I move on
who will be the next one
who will drag me out of this

is it gonna be you again
but it will not be



things change
people change

yes I've changed too

to someone that I dont even know anymore

someone that is so afraid to face herself
because she knows her true feeling will hurt her, again.
she knows the thought of going back is just her thought
she knows nothing will be the same
she knows there's no more chance
she knows she should move on
she knows there will be better options, if she's lucky enough
but she knows
she will not have that luck again


she knows
things will never be the same
the future
will not be the same
the same as she imagined
almost ten years ago


push
push those people away
when they try to push you
when you know its not going to work for you

why do you have to hurt yourself again
why do you have to do what they want you to do
why cant you follow your feelings anymore
why are you so scared
why are you hiding yourself from anybody else
why cant you accept the fact



Why do you have to take so long?
he did it so easily.

미친

Yes I am good at telling people I am fine.

Yes I am good at acting that I am fine.

but the more I hide,

the more I suffer at night.

Think I am getting crazier.

Are you really okay?

天天去做 就对了

想做的

能做的

要做的

该做的

都好多

没时间

长大好快

但是

天天去做

就对了

自己加油