Its still you, why?

We celebrated 6 Christmas together,
And this is the 6th without you.

I found the last letter from you,
I hope I'm crying to a dream with you,
So I can see you again.

Honestly,


I still want you back.

Isn't it great if we are still together,
you're still with me,
at least you know everything,

and I don't have to introduce myself all over again.


If you found someone like you,
bring him to me.

How many more nights to suffer
How many more days to wait

現在

好嗎
不好


不是不感恩
我一直都提醒自己要感恩
只是每天都累得有心無力
不只是失望那麼簡單


所以 真的很多事情要靠自己
靠自己最好
堅強才能撐下去


沒人疼你
你還有你自己



記得

Another Routine

So I thought I've had enough of Germany,
enough of toxic relationships in Germany.
Although I still have quite a number of friends that really care, which is actually very lucky of me.

I knew one day I will miss my life there, having nothing to care about but just myself.

But it is just the 6th day home, and the feeling already hit me. Why did I thought something will be different after leaving for 2 years?

Its not a new spot of pain, its just my old scar that start aching again.

Now I know why I don't move on even if I moved to a new place, I thought that would work.
But I just miss how you will be there everytime.
I just miss how I can take your time and patient for granted like you owe me everything.
I spent all my quotas and now I will have to deal it by myself.

You left me with nothing.
But I did try, you know?
I am not waiting for you to return.
I know I dont deserve it anymore.
I tried to look for someone else.

I guess I just didn't try hard enough.
But I know I just simply don't deserve anybody elses.


What would happen if you're still you, and we are still us.

若遲早要離開

不要把自己搞得無可取代

The worst feeling that can be is

to feel
nobody on earth needs you.

Constantly.

The feeling of wanting someone badly


It just never come back

Something is wrong with me

life and people thought me so
life and people took it away

that part of me that has disappeared
for years

and I only realize it now




the part of me that will do anything for anyone
caring
for others


the true caring I mean
not hoping for anything for return


I still had it
even after you were gone


but people keep coming
keep teaching me the same lesson


keep telling me that
people leave at the end


dont care


and tearing the last piece of soul in me apart


thats how you grow up

they say



i dont know where am i
i dont see myself anywhere anymore

束手无策

都说胎教很重要
妈妈怀我的时候真的哭太多了
吃得苦也是最多的时候
以前她说的我都不信
我一点都不爱哭
最乖最多人疼的是我

可是好像那些日子都离我好远了
不记得最后一天是什么时候了

不记得什么时候不哭了

眼泪都多得不珍贵了



《傻子》 现在
再贴切不过了

等爱的人很多　不预设你会在乎我
难道一生的时间都用来换和你一个误会
谁能真的让谁　幸福到故事的结尾
何必那么的慌张
有时清醒　才是错误的开始
我不需要　也不重要
做一个傻子多么好
我不明白　也不需要明白
就让我这样到老
谁能真的让谁　幸福到故事的结尾
何必那么的慌张
有时清醒　才是错误的开始
我不需要　也不重要

做一个傻子多么好
我不明白　也不需要明白
就让我这样就很好

没什么紧要
只需要你轻轻一个拥抱
就算不留下什么也无所谓就算留下了什么也都珍贵　珍贵　珍贵
做傻子多么好
我不明白　也不需要明白
就让我这样到老
这样到老



你怎么可以让我那么束手无策
我有什么做不到的啊


除了你