So I thought I've had enough of Germany,
enough of toxic relationships in Germany.
Although I still have quite a number of friends that really care, which is actually very lucky of me.
I knew one day I will miss my life there, having nothing to care about but just myself.
But it is just the 6th day home, and the feeling already hit me. Why did I thought something will be different after leaving for 2 years?
Its not a new spot of pain, its just my old scar that start aching again.
Now I know why I don't move on even if I moved to a new place, I thought that would work.
But I just miss how you will be there everytime.
I just miss how I can take your time and patient for granted like you owe me everything.
I spent all my quotas and now I will have to deal it by myself.
You left me with nothing.
But I did try, you know?
I am not waiting for you to return.
I know I dont deserve it anymore.
I tried to look for someone else.
I guess I just didn't try hard enough.
But I know I just simply don't deserve anybody elses.
What would happen if you're still you, and we are still us.
